Rachel’s sexuality provides her with a clear sense of self and community—until she falls for Nick and questions everything she thought she knew about herself.
This was so refreshing and reliving to read for me. I had struggled with addiction and anxiety for years to cover up a lot of underlying complex developmental trauma and when I sobered up, I got married with a straight man (though I never wanted to marry and have a kid..) and decided to get a child and got oregnant, then I realized more than ever at that point that I wasn’t feeling comfortable with my own female body and I liked women even more than men romantically and sexuallly. There was this long period of time in life I thought I was asexual and there was another time in life I was sexually attracted to my gay friends.
Now I’m very grateful for my life and everybody in it, and I am constantly feeling something isn’t quite right with my sexual orientation and am questioning how (un)comfortable I feel about my gender right now. And I’m too busy to think about it today with multiple jobs and taking care of my daughter- and I’m still grateful and I’m not rushing to define myself - to who? I mean? I love my partner and my daughter - and we will find out in our own ways what our family would look like , the only thing I know is our family is full of love. And I’m just so full of gratitude.
This was so refreshing and reliving to read for me. I had struggled with addiction and anxiety for years to cover up a lot of underlying complex developmental trauma and when I sobered up, I got married with a straight man (though I never wanted to marry and have a kid..) and decided to get a child and got oregnant, then I realized more than ever at that point that I wasn’t feeling comfortable with my own female body and I liked women even more than men romantically and sexuallly. There was this long period of time in life I thought I was asexual and there was another time in life I was sexually attracted to my gay friends.
Now I’m very grateful for my life and everybody in it, and I am constantly feeling something isn’t quite right with my sexual orientation and am questioning how (un)comfortable I feel about my gender right now. And I’m too busy to think about it today with multiple jobs and taking care of my daughter- and I’m still grateful and I’m not rushing to define myself - to who? I mean? I love my partner and my daughter - and we will find out in our own ways what our family would look like , the only thing I know is our family is full of love. And I’m just so full of gratitude.